I am feeling unmotivated

Help! I don't know what has gotten into me that last few days but I have really been down in the dumps and have felt horrible about myself. One thing I need to be honest about is the fact that I have struggled with poor body image since I first lost weight and began eating better/exericising(about 6 years).  It doesn't make any sense, I know! When I was at my heaviest, it really didn't bother me. I remember the days when I went to the gym 6 days a week, for an hour and 15mins every morning before work and on the weekends. I do not find it as easy anymore, especially with a 9am-6pm job. I try my best to eat a balanced diet and work out as many times per week as I can, but it just doesn't seem good enough.  I am not happy with the way my body looks and I want to lose about 10lbs and I just feel like it is never going to happen. I am getting  married in 4 months and want to look and feel my very best. 

I am sorry to be such a negative nelly tonight but I am just feeling blue. Anyone have any advice? Anyone been through this?

Okay on today's eats. I really don't know what my problem is but I could have eaten all day long if I allowed myself to.  Ugh! Before lunch I had about 8 small pretzel sticks that a co-worker gave me After lunch I had a Nature Valley PB granola bar. When I got home from work I heated up some Chicken Stoup that I made yesterday afternoon in the crock-pot. I said Stoup because it was a cross between a soup and a stew. 

In the crock-pot went the following ingredients: (I did not measure anything)

- skinless chicken thighs

- cubed potatoes

- carrots

- onions

- frozen peas with pearl onions

- garlic powder

- a little olive oil

- fresh ground pepper

- sprinkle of sea salt

- 1 can low sodium chicken broth

- a little water and 1 sodium-free, chicken bouillon powder

I cooked it all on high for 5 hrs in the crock-pot. This was excellent! It was so nice to come home tonight to a cooked dinner. All I had to do was heat it up.

While dinner was heating up on the stove I had some Reduced Fat SOur Cream and Onion chips. I told you I don't know what i wrong with me lately!

After dinner I had 4 small little choc chip cookies (tiny...from a 100 calorie pack)

No gym tonight. It was snowing....yet again I had to make it home to shovel before it got too late. Did I mention yet how tired I am of the snow! That's 3 times I needed to shovel in 2 days!

I am off to relax. I am hoping I will be in a better mood tomorrow. I need a good sweaty workout tomorrow.